I’m going to support you with whatever decision you make.
Having people in your life that not only trust your thought process to conclude with a good result but also care about you enough to look past their expectations for you to see a brighter future is important.
I know this all too well, after bringing to my family my desire to transition a little under a year ago. At first, it seemed bleak because what I was proposing to them was hard to understand and literally shattered a lot of what they saw for me. Or at least it seemed that way.
It turns out, that even living as Drew, I am still a productive member of society and (gasp) pretty much exactly as my family knew me. It wasn’t just my family, but my friends that adjusted what they saw, or how they viewed what they saw.
Years of building with legos, taking apart electronics, and playing outside were not voided by my desire to be known as Drew. The haircuts my mom gave me, the evenings playing softball with my dad, the family vacations were not struck from history by hormone therapy. I knew that I was going to be the same person, but I had to let them see it.
It took time, but they still see the same person. If I’m lucky, they see some of the fruit of the labor I’ve put into being a better person.
As a result, I’ve adopted a similar philosophy for all of life’s large changes. Do what’s best for you, tuck your head between your knees and hope that down the road the significant people in your life are still standing behind you. In reality I should be holding the people that care about me accountable for eventually providing emotional support, but I’ve had enough issues with that in the past that I’m afraid of the inevitable disappointment that will follow assuming that the people I care about will stay standing beside me.
Being an adult means that you are presented with decisions where the best option for you often results in disappointing significant people in your life. Emotional support seems to get fewer and far between. You get stronger, or your don’t grow up. You stand on your own, or you sit down. You do what is right for you, or you suffer under your sacrifices. You stay the same person, and other people get to see more of you.